I miss you.
It’s been 3 years and 5 months since I saw you last. In a way it feels like only yesterday, but in a way it feels like forever. A lot has happened since then.
There are days when I wish so bad that you were here that it hurts. But as weird as it may seem, this time I am thankful you are not here any more.
If you were still here I would have to say goodbye to you too. Like all the others I love. I can’t fathom how much it would break my heart to leave you for 3 years knowing you were still here.
If you were still here you would have gotten to know Alayna and I know that she would love you and Dad… I can’t imagine taking her away from that. Lisa and Henry have done a good job of loving on her and my heart aches knowing they’ll miss a lot of her growing up.
Can you believe we are going to Texas to learn Spanish and then moving to Bolivia? I need you to tell me I’m crazy, I need to hear it to know I’m on the right track.
Mom, I miss you. I miss calling you and being able to talk about everything and anything, I miss sitting at your table and eating your delicious food. I miss our relationship. I miss you.
You have been gone for over 3 years now and it’s going to be 3 years and some before we come back to Canada. That seems like a long time, but knowing that I’ve made it 3 years with out seeing you, I know I will make it 3 years with out seeing my family and friends.
Although this hurts, I know I will be ok. God has a plan and He is carrying me to its completion.
Always your baby.
Until next time,